Change

While something ends, something begins on the other hand.

Ternyata jadi anak kelas 3 itu bener-bener nyita waktu ya, buat update aja susah. Ngomong-ngomong besok gue try out inten terus gue bener-bener belom persiapan sama sekali, malah rencana jalan-jalan sama Dito. Stres.

Anyway, something has changed. Something's over. I don't know where to start.........
Intinya, semua kembali ke sedia kala, kembali ke sebagaimana harusnya. Pertamanya gue marah banget, marah banget pas tau. Tapi setelah ngomong panjang lebar semalem dari bentak-bentakan sampe sedih-sedihan sampe biasa lagi sampe gue yang tadinya ngantuk jadi seger sampe jam 4 pagi, we know we both okay. Nope ini bukan tentang si jerapah kok, tentang persahabatan. Caelahhh persahabatan, petualangan sherina kali. Sayangnya gue nggak bisa mention disini. We ended the story but we also wrote a new title, as the beginning, friendship is all we need.

Tapi gue masih sedih loh. Jujur deh. Yah mau gimanapun....

Yaudahlah. Semua masih sama, yang beda cuma... keadaannya.

Nggak ngerti ya? Gue juga enggak.

Hm, Sounds Sarcastic

"It's normal that you don't forget your first love."
- Lon Hammond, Notebook

Poem, Ironic

Grrrk asli tugas liburan banyak banget, mana gue disuruh bikin karangan hukuman gara-gara nggak masuk hari Jumat pas acara Isra Mir'aj di sklh sama hari Senin upacara kemerdekaan gyeheheh I'm so sorrry dear Indonesia, I didn't come, didn't mean I had lost my nasionalism! Nooo I still have it a lot :) Terus ceritanya gue disuruh bikin puisi gitu bahasa Indonesia. Hahaha ngaco abis, gue buat sambil ngobrol sama Vavain hwekekek nih gue copy kesini ya haha tapi jangan ketawa wahai saudara-saudara!

IRONIS

Tergantung tinggi, melayang di atas awan
Geli canda merpati putih, mengiringi
Riang, rona merah apel terukir dan, cantik

Tertawa
Lalu memudar

Mengumbar senyum yang kini terpaksa
Pucat dan basah oleh air mata
Tak kunjung mengering, lembab
Hidup hambar dan rapuh

Jangan lagi tertawa
Jangan lagi berkata apa-apa
Biar semuanya, waktu menghabisi kebahagiaanku
Energiku. Kehidupanku.

Tersandung, dan jatuh
Selamat tinggal langit, ini aku si makhluk darat
Sekarang.
Mungkin Tuhan tahu, takdirku di bumi
Penghindaranku sia sudah

Ironis, tapi toh aku masih hidup
Kalau saja mimpi itu nyata,
Aku ingin sekali meloncat-loncat layaknya masa lalu

***

Say something, insipred by true life, Ren? Hmm. Yah, maybe.

You know?

I used to do my best.
No one did care then I'd take my turn
All for you, all for each of you
Then when my time had come
It was not like I had expected,
happy, but that's all.
And now I'm on my way,
trying to make it look special for me
I don't think it'll work
Years will walk away, but all know
It happens only once in a lifetime.
I was not excited, so
dissapointed?
Yes.
But anyway, thanks.

Welcoming Holidays

Well, I'm having holiday now. It's Thursday, let's count down til Sunday. Spare time, free time..... And I have nothing to do. Pathetic, I've been waiting for this holy-daysss and now I've got nothing to do. Perfect. I'm dreaming abt a little holiday in an island... well it's too far. At least, private beach pleasee :((( But it's still im-pos-si-ble.

You know? Enjoying life isn't that easy. Huh.