another letter to summer

Dear summer days,
Everything happens since you walked away. I lost almost everything at the end of your time but so far, everything’s still under control. I want to thank you for being so memorable each day, I love how you let the sun shine above my head or how you let the rain make my sneakers get dirty, I’m sorry if I kept complaining about my wet hair. I feel good, well, not as good as I felt when you were around but overall, I still have the reasons to smile and get crazy everyday. My friends are awesome, they’re super cool. I love how they make me laugh with those stupid jokes, they lift me up when I, again and again, fall into the under ground.

Dear summer days,
Another season has just come. It rains almost everyday, and I’d like to enjoy everyday just like how I enjoyed my time with you. I love having my quality time with some cups of coffee and feel the pouring rain above my rooftops. I’ve become more introvert yet extrovert at the same time. I feel enjoy when I’m alone, it’s such a right time to fly with my own thoughts, guess what, I think about everything. I know flashback is such a painful thing to do, but I love recalling the old memories. Yeah, most of them are ours. At least I know, I ever felt so alive once. Oh summer days, you were so real that I couldn’t help myself to make sure whether I was dreaming or not.

Dear summer days,
I’ve learnt a lot. I’ve never felt this brave before to take another step, to finally know that moving forward is the only choice left. I know now that forgetting won’t work at all, it’s forgiving actually. Sometimes I think you went too early, I did still have some pages to be written and colored but now I see, there’s still so much time with a lot of the other exciting things waiting somewhere I haven’t known.

Dear summer days,
Tom has finally found his Autumn after Summer walked away. You know what, sometimes I wonder if I could get mine too :p I do believe that somehow, someone must be there, someday, somewhere.

Thanks for giving me a lot of good times, see you next year :)

Busy, leave message.

Full schedule. I get up at 6. The classes start at 8. I patiently listen to those women and men in front of the classes and write the things on the notebook. I get my lunch. I go to the library with some friends or enjoy sitting at the canteen with hot topics to talked about. And I do the random things at campus, til the sky grows dark, time to go back to my room. Everyday. College life is tiring yet exciting so far, and I'm so in love with my new family, Komunikasi UI 2010. Overall, I'm doing fine :)

>:(

#nowplaying John Mayer - In Your Atmosphere

I'm back and I miss everything. I miss everything I've left behind, I miss everything I can't do anymore. I've been so busy lately and I'm still trying to keep up with my own life. I know it sounds funny, but yeah, here I am.



and... I miss the streetlights. I miss how they guided me home.

I say.

"that won't change a thing."

Hello.
Life has been so.....unpredictable these days. But I feel fine so far, everything is still able to be handled and I can say that I'm pretty single now :) No more stupidly wishing for the shooting stars, that heartache comes sometimes but I'm pretty sure that I'm getting my life back.

"Asking you to be back might has been a wrong choice. In the end, all I know is just, I can't trust you at all."

Those days were so hard, if I may say. I was sadly living in sadness. Passing by the roads I used to go with him months ago, those sappy love songs, those sweet memories, his promises about those awesome days ahead that I had imagined... thank God they didn't kill me. I was too fragile to let go, too in love to let go. I just couldn't believe that it really happened on me. Gah, now I'm blabbering too much.
But one day I realized, I should forgive first if I want to forget. I kept waiting for something I didn't even know and I should make a movement. I might have made a lot of big mistakes. But I can't go on with someone who's always ready to take any step and let me go.

"Be a good girl, you deserve someone better, so do I."

Probably it wasn't that we weren't meant to be together, I think that we were just not ready for forever. He was like a star that I kept staring at from my window, I kept wishing it would come to me eventho I know it wouldn't. Everything will get better in time, and I'm letting it all flow. Goodbye, that's all I can say.


500 days of summer
Summer: "I woke up one morning and I just knew."
Tom: "Knew what?"
Summer: "What I was never sure of with you."
...

You can be in love and you can be in a relationship. But they're not always the same thing.

AUGUST

August = Attitude

outgoing personality. feeds on attention. takes risks. self control. kind hearted. self confident. loud and boisterous. likes talking and singing. very revengeful. easy to get along with and talk to. has an “every thing’s peachy” attitude. daydreamer. easily distracted. loves music. hates not being trusted. big imagination. hates studying. in need of “that someone”. longs for freedom. rebellious when withheld or restricted. loves to be loved. lives by “no pain no gain” caring. always a suspect. playful. mysterious. “charming” or “beautiful” to everyone. stubborn. curious. independent. strong willed. a fighter.