12.9.12

None of us is a fortune teller.


I don't mean to be overreacting, I just never got any lyrics of any song which can meaningfully express how your life has been, or how you really feel, lately. This one... is literally true. I mean it.

I'm not a fortune teller
I won't be bringing news of what tomorrow brings
I'll leave that up to you
I'm not a fortune teller
Don't have a crystal ball
I can't predict the future
Can't see nothing at all

It doesn't mean I'm afraid

Of all the things that you say
But I just think we should stay
Stuck in the moment today
And as the seasons roll by
No matter how hard I try
Summer will end and the leaves will turn again

I don't know why you're acting like this

I don't know why you had to do it again
Why'd you have to go and ruin the night?
Don't worry about tomorrow's mess

I'll never know

How the future will go
I don't know what to tell you,
I'm not a fortune teller
I'll never change,
But I want you to stay
I don't know what to tell you,
I'm not a fortune teller

I don't like watching TV

I don't know what it all means
And your american dream,
Baby, it just isn't me
I know that what I'm thinking
May not be on your mind
I know the song I'm singing
Is not your favorite kind

It doesn't mean I'm afraid

Of all the things that you say
But I just think we should stay
Stuck in the moment today
And as the seasons roll by
No matter how hard I try
Summer will end and the leaves will turn again

I don't know why you're acting like this

I don't know why you had to do it again
Why'd you have to go and ruin the night?
Don't worry about tomorrow's mess

I'll never know

How the future will go
I don't know what to tell you,
I'm not a fortune teller
I'll never change,
But I want you to stay
I don't know what to tell you,
I'm not a fortune teller

This feeling keeps growing,

These rivers keep flowing.
How can I have answers when you drown me in questions?

I'll never know

How the future will go
I don't know what to tell you,
I'm not a fortune teller
I'll never change,
But I want you to stay
I don't know what to tell you,
I'm not a fortune teller



and just like that... this upbeat song gives another hit on me, much more than the ballad ones. again.

1.9.12

and the journey still continues.

A friend of mine once said,

"What really matters in a relationship is not how long it lasts and where it ends, but the whole process you are both going through, since the very beginning, now, tomorrow, and so on, and how this process affects you to be someone else, better or worse."

I'm good, I feel good.
I can't tell whether this relationship has brought me into a better person or not, well, I am not there yet, I just feel good.
This, this whole thing, really takes time. Days. Nights. Weeks. Months. Years.
To know you better, to know me better, to realize that I was not as good as I thought, to realize that we were not as perfect as we (or especially, I) thought.

I feel good.
Through a lot of smile, pain, laughter, and tears, there's always another chance to feel, and know, something new. New lessons, new mistakes, new point of view, new conclusion, new habits, new favorites, and so on, and so on, and so on, each day.
They bring me closer to you, and it feels good.

I know I can't wish for things to stay the same forever anymore. There will always be something different, to talk about, to fight about. It's just, as long as you are with me on this, I'll take every chance. You make me feel good.