Hard to Say

“Comparisons are easily done once you’ve had a taste of perfection.”

It’s hard.

When you do your best, but still, there was someone better.

It’s hard.

When you draw him in your world, but he actually doesn’t even stay in your world.

It’s hard.

When you worry about him all the time, but he doesn’t even think of you.

It’s hard.

When you sing with him, but his mind is somewhere else, capturing his memories.

It’s hard.

When you feel warm around his arm, but he hold you just for fun.

It’s hard.

When you’re happy while your hands are gently held by him, but he takes off his hands.

It’s hard.

When you get mad with him, but he doesn’t take it seriously.

It’s hard.

When you realize you’re completely alone, but he doesn’t even try to look after you.

It’s hard.

When you need him all the time, but he needs you just to escape from his broken hearts thingy.

It’s hard.

When all of this upset you, but he thinks you act too over.

It’s hard.

When you’ve finally got a life because of him, but he hasn’t even moved on.

Sorry if it’s too much, I just don’t know whom to talk to.

just....grow old with me.

The Girl is Trying to Find A Way Back Into Love

Hey....long time no see.
Been extremely busy with those senior year routines, and I'm getting sick of them. My sleep hours have just been fucked up, I sleep 3 or 4 hours a day and that's all enough. Ha, get crazy? So what am I doing at the whole time? studying? unluckily not as simple as that. Sometimes I do studying, sometimes I.....hang on the phone til the midnights shout out. Yep, desperately I'm in love. suck? yeahhh.

Moving on? Nope.... I just let it flow. I don't even know whether I have already moved on or not, I just let my life goes by as the time walks away. Who is he? Let me describe..... an unpredictable guy which is five years older than me (well he'll kill me if he knows I write it down here), with a zuper-testpack-hearted, kindly nice, and funny. Knows how to make me smile, even angry. A good dreaming-partner, he's totally crazy when making dreams. Been my nightcall almost every night, waking up call almost every morning, but he's missing at days. He's busy with his life at sunny days, well I'm on my way to get used to. He's not a new comer, nope, I think I have written about him here, months ago. The story was totally complicated, but here we are. Making an escape together from the big jail called past, breaking dawn just like Edward and Bella do hahahaha.

I don't know where we are going. I just don't know. For this moment, I just wanna take it all...easy. Still on my way to get the yellow jackets, pray for me! :)